Aggrandize - Increase the power, status, or wealth of. Enhance the reputation of (someone) beyond what is justified by the facts.
Bereave - Be deprived of a loved one through a profound absence especially due to the loved one’s death.
Mania - Mental illness marked by periods of great excitement or euphoria, delusions, and overactivity. An excessive enthusiasm or desire; obsession.
Chagrin - Distress or embarrassment at having failed or been humiliated.
Valiant - Possessing or showing courage or determination.
Futile - Incapable of producing any useful result; pointless.
Acedia - Spiritual or mental sloth; apathy.
Ascetic - Characterized by or suggesting the practice of sever self-discipline and abstention from all forms of indulgence, typically for religious reasons.
Sad - feeling or showing sorrow; unhappy.